guess twice

5:11pm: i will be a doctor
the other day i ended up meeting a very very very smart man...

he was a toothless black man living off the streets in venice beach....
he had his "doctorology" in nuclear....(just nuclear).... movie making... medicine... and cutting throats...

that last one was the one that he was about to show us on a "whitey" who didnt give him any money or a piece of his chicken sandwich... what a sucka...

1:04pm: 25 days later
my new goal in life...

become as big of a chick magnet as the beach happens to be...

9:11pm: 20 days later....
eternal sunshine is a great movie...

descendents is a great band...

10:59pm: ive reached a level which i am happy
this idea of getting permenant ink damage done to my skin has become quite an interesting thing in my head... i want to do it very badly at the moment... ill go a year before anything happens though.... i like to think these thoughts alot...

as for other things... music is going to be it for me for a while... i like to play and i have become quite good at my chosen instrument and style of music... i like it alot

4:26pm: envy is great
i have seen a few things in the past days... funny enough i have been kicked from my first band... it seems they went a horrible way about doing it too... yep they did... i learned of this after a week of the new kid playing.. whatev... they played great... the new songs are good songs... i dont like how my drumming on the old songs has changed... those songs are boring crap to me now.. is what i thought... but the new stuff is better than the old stuff anyways... baisically its a new band... i dont worry about shit now... except that i learned that my san diego band already has a pretty good folowing.... and we have JUST written 3 songs... this bothers me..

the people following us are people who are doing this with no actual music ever written yet... but this means that they will like our stuff that we have done... which is good

i might take a jump into something new... i am going to...

my finger is pretty much cut to the bone.... gross ehh? well its all part of playing those fucking drums... i need to be better at it than i am right now... i will play and play and play and play and play and play and play and play...

spi has a demo now that we are no longer a band... cool huh... thanks rollie...

i need to practice some more

12:09am: scary thoughts
i wish i could take most of your problems and just add them to mine... only because you dont deserve what you have in pain.... you will never read this.. but i will still try to get you happy...

12:00am: ive been out done
my eagerness in playin music has gotten me kicked out of the band... i am no more in my girly band... because i play music too much and go to school too much and work too much... im bummed... but i figured this might happen... ohh well lightened up my load on music... which is good...


Current Count: 2 serious band projects... WAY more countless sideprojects... so i have extra space

10:54pm: yes yes...
today i went to san diego for band practice... and i went in and out of rain about 42 times and saw many amazingly bad car accidents.... one 7 car pile up... and so i just made it there.. not flipping any fucking cars again...

practice was really cool actually... 3 songs down now in a good style that is becoming fun to play and i like the sound... and maybe a good name for this new group based off of a GREAT song that we all love and listen to...

things seem to be happening all around the place for me.. this is cool... hopefully the show this friday will be fun... i bet rhea is dead from being sooo sick... i hope not... but we will rock so hard other people will puke.. fun for us... and then the show on the 5th is going to be amazing... and more people will be into us after that show...

12:23am: drums
today was practice for me and i am sooo much better at drums than i thought i was... but i still need to be better than all the people i see...


our first show is on the 5th... its going to be great...

fun night tonight... for all the good old reasons

9:26pm: so tonight tonight....
i have to say i kinda wished for this feeling last week... right now i am throwing up like my lifes exsistance is based upon my performance of this here sweet treat tonight... i label this action right up there with sneezing... both of them are quite enjoyable... also both of them are completly un-explainable... for me to describe the feeling of either one is impossible...

on another note... im getting in shape for no reason... except to play drums faster and harder and win at a couple races i have with myself at this moment.... which all seem to be getting over quite quickly... i like the fact that this will happen to me... i never knew it just happens out of nowhere...

11:13pm: totally done
ok well running is done.. what do i do... what do i do.. ive come to a silly split of paths...

8:08pm: run run run run
i ran earlier today... ate a hot dog... now im going to run again...


plus... i have to now because i have things to do and i must be able to beat all the odds... being in shape is crucial for this task... WIN WIN

1:34am: i dont really know what is going to happen
a few things have happened that i have never really participated in before... so i dont know how things will come out... just the usual id assume... nothing gained nothing lost.... i really wish that would change... will you do that for me

1:00pm: well...
funny how i just found something i really like on this little website... i plan to use it a bit more now id guess

7:03pm: back at it
i have saved myself from making a huge mistake come this valentines day... thank god such a situation did not happen

2:01am: a white story....
a tiger striped cat who lived a million lives
had a million different owners
always dies and is re-encarnated a million different times

the cat does not mind this for it has forever
to live its dream and live its desire
then he becomes a stray and is now free

now his choices are his and he lives for himself
doing as his wishes not having a sheltered life
but he does meet a little white cat

they spend all their time togeather
and grow old with eachother
and the white cat becomes weak and dies

now the stray finds his end
he also is weak in due time and passes
to find his end complete

8:36pm: i just thought of a simple question
what would you do if you were stabbed in the stomach by the next person that you see who you didnt know...

i would start laughing and kissing my attacker becuase he doesnt want that... he wants me dead, fuck him